hellooooooo out there.

weird.

yep, weird.

took me a good four tries until i got the password right on this wordpress login. yikes.

it’s been a while my friends.

from time to time the thoughts typically flowing wildly in my head come to a hasty halt. why, i’m not really sure.

i can speculate, from living inside this here skin for THIRTY years now, that my brain has a threshold. a limit that once exceeded ceases to run on overdrive.
instead it goes into only-things-completely-necessary-auto pilot. like keeping children alive and healthy and happy and thriving.

like going to the grocery store once a week, making mortgage payments and a million and three other minute but all encompassing tasks.

throw in weeks of single parenting, a string of migraines, medicinal meltdowns and major career changes and, welp, here we are.

but last night as i lay in bed, clean sheets, freshly showered with the wind from a fan lapping my legs, i started to type in my head. and i knew that today i would write again. about what, hard to say. but here i am.

first and foremost the thing that, right now, i am most excited to share with you is that i have found a cure for the eczema destroying my hands! (ok, yes i have and i’ll get to that in a minute) my husband just landed a super kick-ass job and i am so seriously proud of him.

the most modest, hard working, talented and loving person i know. i am honored and humbled to be married to, and raising children, with such a man. congrats babe, i love you and i’ll always back you up. can’t wait to see you make those hawks soar.

and yeah. i found a cure for the incredibly annoying and totally icky eczema that has been plaguing my hands for the last year. and, of course, in the most unexpected of places.

i’d given it time. i’d retired my wedding rings to my jewelry box and walked around feeling single and doubly knocked up totally naked. i’d chalked it up to stress and time will heal. i did, at one point, get a prescription for a steriod cream which was the consistency of petroleum jelly (with exactly the same, lack of, absorption ability) with instructions to NOT GET ON FACE and use only for two weeks at a time. for eight days i slabbed the stuff on my fingers, crawled into bed, propped my hands up and out the way of anyone or anything else and did a few hail mary’s that my hands would steer clear.

it worked. for three days. and then the worst ever case bubbled and spread it’s way devilishly across my hands.

and then last week, while visiting family in NH my mom and i happened across a jewelry store and a woman who told us to go see george at the apothecary. he had a special serum that would work.

so we did.

the apothecary, keene, nh

and my mom bought me a little vat of formula #219 for $20.

and it goes on smoothly and soaks right into my skin and smells like peppermint. and oh yeah, it worked. like really worked. after only a few nights i am once again hitched, toting two flawless, you’re a pissa work decorated, fingers.

you see, it’s all about the little things these days. eczema you are officially checked off the list of things to figure out.

and in keeping with new jobs…i am starting to really fall into a rhythm with mine.

in all honesty, it did take a couple of weeks to loosen up. to not feel like every second has to be spent doing something of measured value.

to sit, guilt-free amongst pots and pans and spatulas on the floor in the kitchen with my band not worrying about time or emails or phone calls.

my children are my biggest accomplishments. the best parts of me. and i have the chance to truly soak them up. to teach them and show them and learn from them the things that are most important in this world. all day long.

yes, even when it’s really hard and there are no breaks and i’ve somehow found yet another answer to the four hundredth and fifty eighth “why?” of the day.

truly, there have been many more momentous happenings. like my son turning three and his mama turning thirty. like an amazing girls’ weekend with some of my favorites on a lake in new hampshire. all things that really are worthy of their own post. and just might be given the opportunity if this auto-pilot continues to stay off.

i hope you have all blissfully exited spring. onward and upward to summer.