Archive for April, 2010

April 21st, 2010

ice cream cones and truck spotting

this afternoon was just another in a long line of afternoons. except it wasn’t. it was really great – in an everyday, totally non-life changing (but then again, completely life changing) kinda way.

we met some friends at the playground, chit chatted about houses and kids and the new-to-town (and highly-recommended) hair dresser. kids ran up and down the playscapes, slid down slides and jumped on wiggly bridges. that is, all of them except mine who prefers to climb and re-climb the few sections of stairs leading to the slides and wiggly bridges.  just stepping up and stepping down. the whole time. he  doesn’t even have much interest  in the swing but had fun cheering on his fearless little sister.

and when we left the playground it was that perfect not quite dinner time but just right ice cream time of day. so i looked in the rear view at my flushed, sweat streaked toddler and said, “who wants to join mommy for an ice cream cone?”. those precious green eyes widely responded with an, “ICE CREAM CONE!”. success, a taker!

admittedly, i am a complete ice cream junkie. every sunny, summer afternoon around 4 pm should be mandatory ice cream consumption time, if you ask me. so, yes, i totally play up the fact that i have a more than willing cookies ‘n cream sidekick, conveniently willing to aid in my addiction. plus, a lady eating ice cream outside at 4pm on a random tuesday is much more acceptable with a grinning tot in toe. no?

we sat outside of friendly’s on their built in tables, cookies ‘n cream cone for jackson, butter crunch cup for momma and a couple of spoons to occupy ms harper.

             

we sat with the warm sun on our backs, sweet ice cream on our lips (ok, and nose, cheeks, ears) and waved to the passing trucks and motorcycles. although there were many, many cars they really can’t hold a flame to garbage trucks, oil trucks, tractor trailers or grumbling harleys.

it’s moments like these, watching your child totally euphoric over ice cream and traffic that you must sit back and take it in. be present. breath. look into the sky and thank whoever it may be you give thanks for moments like these. for all that you have.

 

 

no matter how loud or how sticky.

 for they are the moments that define my life. as mundane and uninspiring as it may sound to some, yes, sitting in front of a friendly’s next to a busy road hooping and hollering at a dump truck is the definition of my life right now. and today, i was able to really let it sink in; to appreciate it for all it’s worth. but trust me, some days that ability is just not there. and i guess, that’s ok.

so, my thought today, with a belly full of my all-time favorite – buttercrunch icecream – is that you may not be able to always make a day at friendly’s a life changing event. nor should you. but as often as you can, no matter how difficult the day, week, month or year, really try to stop and listen and look and feel. chances are if you have kids it will be loud, messy, possibly stinky and most likely slimy. but with momma eyes, it’s the most beautiful thing imaginable.

 

from a favorite book: what was good about today? a lot of things i would say.

April 16th, 2010

savoring the small things

the past few days have been a blur of runny noses, toe curling coughs, sleepless nights (mainly due to h’s inability to harmoniously thumb suck and breath), eucalyptus and steamy showers and a whole lotta whining. but it’s friday and i have a glass of malbec in my hand (or, on the table next to me), the house is still (albeit for name that cough every 20 minutes or so) and i just had a really great evening with my littlest man.

i think we’re turning a corner, or maybe hitting a straightaway, in harper’s development. and more specifically, jackson’s reactions to these developments. for the first time i’ve noticed jackson mimicking harper’s cries, saying “no harper beans!” when she is seeking attention or trying to touch one of his toys. she is no longer a sleepy infant but a little person full of opinions, voice (a loud one), and persistence. not to mention a mean backwards shuffle of sorts, soon to be a full on frontward crawl. and boy i bet that’s a lot to take in and understand for an almost 2 year old “big” brother.   

which leads me this post and the inspiration behind it; this wonderful evening just jackson and i. 

harper has been going down 30-60 minutes or so before jackson the past couple of weeks. partially because she’s totally fried and ready before him and partially because i’ve become so smitten with a little jackson/mommy one on one time.  as, i think, has he. 

tonight jackson helped me give harper a bath (ok, he dribbled ashley’s dora ball around the bathroom while i washed) and even helped powder her bum (and the entire rug ). we all walked upstairs and he sat with us in harper’s room while i nursed her. he lovingly kissed her head and proceeded to pull the loudest possible toy (one where you push the top to make it – and all it’s contents- spin) off the shelf and serenade her shock her to death. after a few slight whimpers, thumb found mouth and all was still. 

we changed into our jammies (jackson’s are way cuter - bright green with bugs versus my husband’s large uconn sweats) and headed downstairs. in a i’ve-got-something-really-great-for-you tone  i said, ‘hey jackson…’. his eyes lit up and he whirled around, repeating me with a big grin, ‘ hey zhackson…’. we sat together, oatmeal cookies and milk in hand and chit chatted. by the way, how ridiculously cool is it that i can chit chat with my almost two year old. wow. 

the conversation lead to baseball fields and huskies (in normal jackson fashion) and eventually to video highlights of last weeks uconn baseball games against the university of hartford and villanova. this kid can not sit still through three minutes of shrek, air buddies or even finding nemo but a 3″ x 3″ box of baseball highlights, barely visible on a computer screen? had to pry him away.  

after a quick teeth brushing and a dig through the car basket to pick a sleeping friend (after mommy suggested the bar of soap may not be the best choice) we headed upstairs, little metal school bus and all. we climbed into the big bed (used for bedtime books and the occasional snoring parent – insert throat clearing noise here- ) and read “one yak called jack” and “the snowy day”. well, i should say, i read the books aloud while jackson drove his school bus up and down my arm. he pointed to the windows, wheels and door upon prompting from me and then offered up the nose, eyes and hair all on his own. and no, this is not a cartoon bus – just a mini real life version. but damn, is he right. it totally has a nose, eyes and hair. the things this little boy teaches me are truly endless. 

we had some sweet giggles, in hushed, smiley voices. i listened to my son talk about his friends, sam, madison, sophia, quinn and emerson in his perfectly broken toddlerese. i admired his sparkling green eyes and the mommy-esque little freckle adorning his left cheek. and i held back tears of thanks, awe, pride and total incomprehension of the remarkable person i get to share this life with. 

switching the light off i caught a glimpse of this picture, framed on jackson’s bureau. 

what an amazing two years it’s been. 

i tucked my son, his school bus and ambulance puzzle piece (don’t ask) into bed. i told him how much i love him and how proud i am to be his mommy. and he smiled at me and whispered in a raspy sickness-altered voice, wuv you too mom-ay. 

and this is the way the world works. it throws you nights like these in the midst of a week of ‘the whining chair’,  umpteen, ”please don’t hit the _wall, baby, dog, door…_ with your bat”,  not to mention random outbursts of, “are you kidding me, mommy?!”. no idea where he got that from… 

and for that i am truly grateful. 

one lucky momma

 

April 15th, 2010

for my pregnant peeps

in honor of all my pregnant friends, i thought i’d re-post a couple (ok, i got a little carried away) of my ‘pregnancy woe’ blogs. i’m not there anymore, but i will never forget those feelings, both incredibly miraculous and totally dreadful.

enjoy this day and this stage you are in for it will quickly pass. you are beautiful, you are righteous; you are growing a tiny miracle. i’d be hardpressed to find a more demanding, vital or worthwhile  job.  put on that too-small tank and let that belly hang out. it’s beyond beautiful, as are you.

ready to pop

new year’s resolution

joys of pregnancy

baby belly bliss and a lil update

the finish line

the triple b’s: boobs.belly.butt or baking.birthing.burping


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