so, today i cut out one of my favorite ultra sound pictures from our 12 wk appointment and posted it next to my computer. somehow looking at the little body of our second child is even more surreal than the first time around. not only does it bring me much joy to look at this picture, many days, i’m sure, it will remind me that i am in fact pregnant, again.

to say that we were in shock to find that clear blue easy read “pregnant” on january 11 is an extreme understatement. my initial reaction was to laugh, which i did. it must have been a very nervous, what the &**# kind of laugh because jusin said, “what?”, “are we pregnant?”. um, yes. yes we are. “how is this possible?” which, ok i know, might be fairly obvious. but we were being careful and come on, i only have one ovary. shouldn’t that at least make things in the baby making arena slightly more complicated? apparently that trusty right one is putting in overtime; shooting out eggs like a semi-automatic weapon.

we always knew we wanted more than one child (i used to say three and justin two. now i say two as well) and we also knew we wanted them close in age. well by george i guess we, along with that famous right ovary, accomplished that goal.

so now that the initial shock has worn off and the shock is still there, it’s just subsequent, i am getting excited and more importantly (for our child en utero who may read this some day) i truly know that this little being is meant to be here. i may not be very religious but i am spiritual and i believe wholeheartedly in fate and have faith. we have a lot of love to give and an amazing family with arms and hearts wide open; like jackson, this little one is oh so very lucky.

this is not to say, however, that having two children under a year a half won’t be challenging. remember that whole ’shock’ thing? we know we will have our hands full. but i honestly can’t think of anything more wonderful to have my hands full of. bring it on.