December 27th, 2007
the best gift
posted on 12/27/2007
the holidays are always crazy. i used to think that the year of complete relaxation and staying in pj’s for days on end was right around the corner. but just when i could almost taste the laziness, everything changed. something tells me, the next time i’ll come close to that taste again will be 2068 when my biggest worries will be what wool sweater to wear and am i out of metamucil?
i suppose if we wanted to be family outcasts and not participate in the “stop by’s” we could in fact stay in our pj’s for days on end. but really, what’s the fun in that. we love our family. seeing them ALL is very time consuming and hectic - but you know what, at the end of the day family is really all you’ve got.
in the midst of all the cheese balls and egg nog and running around something really magical happened. it was by far, the best christmas gift of the year. we had just settled in for the night after a full day of stop by’s. our festive garments were replaced by oversized, cozy pj’s and we were exchanging the last of our christmas presents when two HUGE kicks came from my little belly. this one was for dad and it was so clear. two initial kicks to get my attention and as soon as justin’s hand was in place, two more to follow. it was the first time justin felt the baby. clearly, our little boy wanted to get in the last and best gift of the season. J
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December 11th, 2007
new year’s resolution
posted on 12/19/2007
the pearl street mall in boulder, colorado is a wonderful cobblestone street lined with funky boutiques, great restaurants, water fountains & artwork and lots of happy, beautiful people. on a typical summer day you will see hundreds of families, small children and college students. but the people that i remember the most were pregnant women. pregnant women with tank tops and summer dresses showing off their beautiful bellies; proud, radiant and full. i would look at them with longing and think, “i can’t wait to be pregnant and look just like that”.
so here i am, two and a half years later. pregant, yes. full, yes. radiant? well, i’m working on that one. i have spent so much time looking forward to the moment in my life where i would be ready to have children, to be pregnant. and of course, i had a vision of exactly what that would look, and feel, like. why is it that my reality is not what i envisioned? ugghh.
no one ever tells you some of the really important things about your body and pregnancy and how truly weird, invasive and unattractive it can be (probably for fear that if the truth was told, the human race may cease to exist). did you know that your skin reverts back in age about 12 years to pre-pubescence? that hair begins to grow in places you never thought humanly possible? or that the only way to have smooth legs it to shave three times a day? What about that dimples often appear in places other than your face? these are all real parts of this miraculous process which if i had known, may have made it easier to fall victim to. but the bottom line is these things can all be real AND i can still feel radiant. not just for me, but for justin and for our son.
this brings me to my new year’s resolution: changing this view of myself. starting today i am a sexy, beautiful, full figured mama- body and mind. i’m going to treat myself to a massage, buy a maternity outfit that i feel really great it, get a facial and buy salon quality shampoo. i’m starting pre-natal yoga and painting my nails. i may even treat myself to a monthly decaf mocha. go me.
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December 6th, 2007
oh BOY!
posted on 12/06/2007
yesterday was an extremely exciting day for the bloods!
the anatomy scan is an ultrasound scheduled somewhere between 18 and 20 weeks where measurements of the baby are taken to ensure proper growth and development – gender is visible by this time as well (if you are impatient parents like us you can find out). this appointment was scheduled at st. francis hospital where we will be delivering (versus the small office my dr. practices out of). we were able to watch as the technician scanned, measured and scrutinized over our little one - he is perfectly healthy and growing ahead of schedule at 20wks 5 days. after the scan was complete our technician told justin what to look for between the baby’s legs (yes, he already had some sort of an idea) and asked him to announce what he saw. what a magical moment. we are having a little boy and are so ecstatic. i continue to be mystified and humbled by this entire experience – so, if finding out that our baby BOY is healthy and on track wasn’t exciting enough, later last night i felt the first movements (maybe kicks?) from our very active little man - the strangest and most wonderful feeling in the world. justin tried and tried to feel, but for now this is just a little gift from baby to mommy that only i can enjoy 
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